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Brief update & a Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe quote

My dear friends,

You haven’t seen me around in a long time, and when I received an email asking if I’m okay I thought perhaps I should let you know that .. yes, I am okay. I am doing better than when I began a break from here. Thank you for your thoughts, prayers and concern.

Still one of my dad’s caregivers (now 1/3 of the way into our 8th year), and because I was on the verge of a breakdown – mentally, emotionally, and physically – I’ve made some changes that have taken some stress off, thereby helping me feel less burdened and depressed. I’ll share more about that at a later date as I’m not ready to yet. However, I have been busy … reading a lot but not writing, not even blogging, as you know. I haven’t been able to keep up with emails or book reviews, although now I am slowly updating my page “My have read 2018 book list.” I’ve read more books (mainly children’s books) this year than ever, already surpassing my year’s goal of 500.

I just wanted to let you know you’re not forgotten and that I am doing better than I have in a long time.

Before I go, here is a quote I thought might be meaningful or encouraging to you.

WHATEVER YOU CAN DO, OR DREAM YOU CAN, BEGIN IT. BOLDNESS HAS GENIUS, POWER AND MAGIC IN IT.

– Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe

Does this quote speak to you in some way?

Love and Blessings to all.  Thanks for reading, and … Creative Musings!  🙂

 

 

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The truth of it is …

 

You may have noticed I am not keeping to my blogging schedule very well of late. I have been trying to dig in and get to it, but it’s just not happening as easily.

The truth of it is …

I am getting more and more pulled down,

feeling as if I’m shutting down,

withdrawing,

while at the same time I am trying to keep going.

So very tired.

I feel joyless .. although my joy comes from – and is – HIM (the Lord), I feel joyless ..

as if the music has left me (I rarely sing and I used to sing or hum aloud or in my head almost all the time)

and the light has turned to shadow.

I feel trapped and closed off and … emptying,

being drained of my spark.

My life is looking gray again … and that hasn’t been for a very long time.

I miss laughter …

real, deep-down, belly-aching laughter …

that comes from delight,

joy,

happiness,

heart songs

and all that is beautiful.

So, the truth of it is, I am depressed. (The fact that I had a birthday Sunday had nothing to do with it, either.)

And yes, I know I mentioned it before, but this is not just going away and has instead been increasing. Even so, I have tried to not let it show and therefore most people likely wouldn’t realize it.

The positive thing is I am getting help from my naturopath and reflexologist. I am not going under, and they will help see to it that I don’t. If I find it too hard to manage until my next scheduled appointment I am to let them know. And I will. There is no way I am going back into the dark, tormented depths of despair I experienced several years ago. It’s been an uphill struggle sometimes to not fall back there, but I have come through and I will again. 

Why am I telling you this? Because I want you to know I am trying. I am reading when I can get myself to do so, and right now I actually have two books on the go. I’m also still plodding along with PiBoIdMo, coming up with ideas for stories for picture books. Our challenge is to think up 30 ideas, one a day for all of November, but today (day 17) I added idea #24 to my list. So, you see, I am trying to keep my brain working through the sometimes foggy days, and the low mental energy, the fatigue, the sadness, the feelings of wanting to retreat into my hidey-hole/safe place.

It’s discouraging to not be able to do all I want to do, all I have committed to do, all I feel I should be doing. Add that into the struggle and it becomes even more difficult to pull out of it, so I’m having to remind myself to not listen to every negative thought.

This won’t last forever, thankfully.

In the meantime, I thank you for your patience and understanding.

With what do you struggle in your daily life? What do you tell yourself to keep positive?

Thanks for reading, and … Creative Musings! 🙂

You Tube video: cycle of life

Hello everyone!

You may have noticed that it’s been three weeks since I last posted here. For me to explain ‘why’ seems pointless, so I will just say that sometimes – for the sake of my own mental health – I just need to pull away from some things for awhile and do something else … or nothing. During this time I hope that you are finding information here – especially on my writers’ helps and workshops pages – when you need it. 

Be sure to bookmark my blog and sign up to receive notice of when new posts have gone live; you won’t want to miss Sue Harrison’s writers workshop each month. We are not sure yet if she will have to take a break for summer, but keep checking in for updates. Next installment is soon.

Awhile ago I watched this You Tube video called cycle of life and thought you might find it interesting, moving, thought-provoking. Please let me know —  what do you think of it? how did it affect you? can you relate to its message in some way?

I hope all is going well in your life.  Sending hugs your way …

Thanks for reading, and … Creative Musings!  🙂

Book Review: Still Alice – by Lisa Genova

Book: Still Alice
Author: Lisa Genova
Publisher: Gallery Books
Date: January 6, 2009
Genre: fiction novel; mental health
Pages: 337; paperback
Price: $15.00 US; also available from Simon & Schuster Audio & as an e-Book
My Rating: A ‘must-read’ for anyone dealing with Alzheimer’s in any way, or wanting to know more about what it’s like – from the inside of it.
 

This is a book I discovered at a meeting of our local Alzheimer’s Support Group. I was urged to read it, so months later – when I felt I was ready – I borrowed it. [As an aside: We meet once a month, and I highly recommend that you join a support group if you are a caregiver of anyone with dementia.]

At first I put off reading this book. I lent it to my sister to read, she said, “Read it!” I lent it to one of our respite workers, he said, “Read it!” Finally, yesterday .. I read it.

This book will open your eyes to, and broaden your understanding of, some of the inner workings of Alzheimer’s disease and what it is like to be its victim. Even though this is a work of fiction, the author did extensive research and study to get it right. It is so very believable. To me, it felt as if I were reading the memoir of an actual person, I felt the frustration and pain of her family, and I laughed out loud at one incident which was both funny because of what happened and sad because of why it happened, and in another place I had tears in my eyes because of the truth of it.

This is a painful and terrifying disease. Even as I write this review I feel the emotion of it. Alzheimer’s steals its victim away, a little at a time. Lisa Genova so aptly described the disease through her characters and helped me better understand the cruel reality of what I (and my sister) deal with every day in some capacity.

Lisa’s main character, Alice, is a very intelligent, highly regarded and respected professor of cognitive psychology at Harvard University. She and her  husband (also a Harvard professor) had brought up their three children and now, at only fifty years of age, Alice knows something is seriously wrong with her memory. She puts off telling anyone and sets out on her own, at first, to find out what is going on. What she learns changes her whole world, and that of her family.

The author draws the reader into the lives of Alice and her family in a very smooth and captivating way. I wanted to know, I needed to know, and Lisa does not disappoint as she covers two years in Alice’s life.

At the end of the book, there is a section of Discussion Questions for a group, or for personal study of the novel. There is also an interview conversation with Lisa Genova.

Lisa Genova, holds a Ph.D. in neuroscience from Harvard University and Still Alice is her first novel.

Now, to you I say, READ IT!

You can find Still Alice listed on my BUY THE BOOK! page.

Thanks for reading, and … Creative Musings! 🙂